Thursday. Only one more day to go of my reboot. I’m not really sure what will change now. I’m eating clean. I’m eating healthy. It would be great if I could just continue that. I will say even yesterday was hard for me. Today I slept late but I am up and functioning. I do feel that I am detoxing and I’m slowly feeling my system creep towards normal. I can’t blame it for having a hard time finding its way back — hasn’t been there for 52 years…..
Ironically, hunger has not been an issue at all. In fact that has surprised me the most. I’m less hungry that I usually am. I feel no cravings at all. But it is my head that has felt foggy for lack of a better word. I keep asking myself what would make me feel better? A shot of my 5 hour energy drink. But I’m not taking it because it has caffeine in it. Today I feel functional but not tip-top. I’m not feeling this burst of energy they talk about. Perhaps my body needs longer to cleanse.
I have been taking all the vitamins and herbs including my Iron pills (the big ugly horse-sized ones they used to make me take, but I think I need those right now.)
Couple of things I have learned. In the past, the ravenous hunger I would experience was probably what Dr. Furhman calls “Toxic Hunger” more often than real hunger. I think a lot of what we think of as hunger is just our bodies crying out for more sugar, caffeine and other drugs. I did not know that we have to detox from wheat even. Really? Wow. Of course there is psychological cravings too, but I haven’t really been experiencing any cravings of any kind so far.
I’m also glad that I have made most of my meals and it really wasn’t that bad. Quinoa, brown rice and last night my first time having black rice which is supposed to be very good for you. Chick peas, black beans, tempeh and tofu, Bales of Kale, sacks of spinach all on hand make it actually kind of easy to whip up a quick dish. Granted I don’t think I can keep to this limited menu but it was easy. I will be buying bags of lemon going forth. That morning cup of hot water with lemon really seems to curb my hunger a little. Lemon on all my greens. Lemon/Avocado/little water is my new go-to for making a dressing. I am getting used to my juicer but I have to admit, it was just easier this morning to go down to the health shop on the first floor of my building and let him make it for me.
I’m going to continue with my morning smoothie because I actually like it and I think I’m getting a lot of nutrients.
I’m glad I’ve done this. I don’t think I could ever do it again so I’ve decided for right now that I will not resume caffeine, alcohol, sugar or bread. It’s just too hard to detox again. At a later point maybe but like quitting cigarettes it has just been too difficult to do this cleanse and now that I realize how addicted I was, I am not interested in going back and ever having to go through this again. The one thing I do miss and I’m looking forward to is more fruit. Who knows, I’m probably addicted to that too. A pineapple sounds so decadent! Psst, over here, I got some plums. Nice ones from Guatemala. Top Shelf.
This morning I was thinking… Hmmm what will be my celebratory meal on Saturday? What do I want that will be different? You know what I came up with? Roasted Acorn squash stuffed with sautéed mushrooms, celery and quinoa… I don’t even know where that came from…. How weird is that? I didn’t think Zen Palate Sesame medallions (which I now understand are not as healthy as they seem and understand my addition to that dish because it is full of wheat and sugar.)
So one more day. But I’m up and working today which is an improvement. I’ll see if I can manage a walk this afternoon.
It is funny, five days doesn’t seem like such a long time until you try to detox, then time becomes like dragging a net through water. But actually it’s five plus seven because I didn’t have any alcohol, caffeine or sugar last week either. Man, I should be totally cleansed by now… Even in cleansing I’m back of the pack.